Finally, away 2007 and welcome the brand new 2008 soon , awaiting the Christmas and New Year near the corner, but here i am in a dilemma. . . . Ain't i supposed to be more cheerful ? thought I'll be enjoying the season period. . . thought I'm content with my present life and everything?

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After all those heartless creatures complaining, grumble and hatred toward Niki, i have to, reluctantly give you away, give you a new, better environment , away from those disgusting people.

No matter how wilful you are, how many time i need to clear the mess, i love you still. .No matter how noisy you are in the middle of the night, i love you still..No matter what, where and when, i remember once you are my little baby Niki. . .

I'll always remember the 1st time when we met,

I'll always remember your 1st bite,

I'll always remember the days spend with you.

I have to admit i cant give you the best and protect you . . . Niki . . I'm sorry, please forgive me

The memories we shared will always be in my mind


Daddy love you. .

Been asking myself what do i really want in life, Haiz . . . i still have a long way to go before i achieve my dream life. . . set up a family of 1 kid, buy a 5 room flat/apartment, own a car and earn 10k monthly. isnt it simple? keke.

Thought i may have Niki, but im out of house everyday from 9am and back by 11pm. Is that fair to her. . I do have a perm job, but the salary is miserable. . .i cant sit and do nothing, I have to re-organise everything. .

I really feel bad having not spend enuff time for Niki, May want to give her to a better home . .
I going to spent more time study, save up as much as i can , quit smoking, . build rapport in my loved one. I want to laugh and be happy everyday.

I will try, thot i may not sucess but i will keep trying. . . ^.-

Today this time, 19:21, I'm still in office, waiting for all the transaction to be authorise. . . I'm using the free time to write this blog, purchase laptop online and read some marketing review.

The whole of today was suxky. . . Came in late in the morning, tons and tons of card bill keep coming in . . . Recently i feel that my life seem to be upside down.. .

Everything turn their back on me, till now Niki still have not master toilet training, resulted? Everything in the house is in the mess. Right now have to focus on 2 project and the deadline is 2 months away . . . Company undergo tremendous changes and going to take place next year 1st qtr. . . relationship never fail to join the chaos team. Nothing in my life seem to be alright.

When will the tide be over. . .

You are allow to chose any two , which will you choose?

Think carefully ~~

1. Time
2. Freedom
3. Money
4. Happiness
5. Love
6. Friend
7. wisdom

So Meaningful

Monday bluesS again, I'm been doing nothing in office , Boredom is killing mi~!~!~!~!

I make use of the free time, sat down and thought of alot of things. . Do i really like my current lifestyle? Can i trust people easily? How am i going to make my life better. . .

After every conclusion, i realised for me to trust people ,they have to be honest with me, not hiding thing or anything like white lies etc. Human being are one scary creature that knows how to hide their true feeling and put on a chameleon mask.

Or i should look at myself in the mirror why I'm so outcast by people. . . Haiz. . .
It either you treat me sincerely or pls stay away from me.