Let pray . . . , pray that 2008 be a better year for us.

Cheerio~~

Recently , i'm under melancholic condition. Im not interested in anything, Low levels of enthusiasm and low levels of eagerness for everything. Althought im under stress with my studies, but that wont be the root of cause. Dont even need to say about work. . . .

I dont want to be like this. . .

I dont really greet people nowadays , or saying im indirectly ignoring everyone, i always put on a long face without knowing, i always pack my lunch back to office . . stay around from crowds. It because i find people dont want to talk to me as well.

Where do i get my cure. . . .

If you gonna ask me why im always moody.

It because im born to have that look!!

Finally, away 2007 and welcome the brand new 2008 soon , awaiting the Christmas and New Year near the corner, but here i am in a dilemma. . . . Ain't i supposed to be more cheerful ? thought I'll be enjoying the season period. . . thought I'm content with my present life and everything?

=(

After all those heartless creatures complaining, grumble and hatred toward Niki, i have to, reluctantly give you away, give you a new, better environment , away from those disgusting people.

No matter how wilful you are, how many time i need to clear the mess, i love you still. .No matter how noisy you are in the middle of the night, i love you still..No matter what, where and when, i remember once you are my little baby Niki. . .

I'll always remember the 1st time when we met,

I'll always remember your 1st bite,

I'll always remember the days spend with you.

I have to admit i cant give you the best and protect you . . . Niki . . I'm sorry, please forgive me

The memories we shared will always be in my mind


Daddy love you. .

Been asking myself what do i really want in life, Haiz . . . i still have a long way to go before i achieve my dream life. . . set up a family of 1 kid, buy a 5 room flat/apartment, own a car and earn 10k monthly. isnt it simple? keke.

Thought i may have Niki, but im out of house everyday from 9am and back by 11pm. Is that fair to her. . I do have a perm job, but the salary is miserable. . .i cant sit and do nothing, I have to re-organise everything. .

I really feel bad having not spend enuff time for Niki, May want to give her to a better home . .
I going to spent more time study, save up as much as i can , quit smoking, . build rapport in my loved one. I want to laugh and be happy everyday.

I will try, thot i may not sucess but i will keep trying. . . ^.-

Today this time, 19:21, I'm still in office, waiting for all the transaction to be authorise. . . I'm using the free time to write this blog, purchase laptop online and read some marketing review.

The whole of today was suxky. . . Came in late in the morning, tons and tons of card bill keep coming in . . . Recently i feel that my life seem to be upside down.. .

Everything turn their back on me, till now Niki still have not master toilet training, resulted? Everything in the house is in the mess. Right now have to focus on 2 project and the deadline is 2 months away . . . Company undergo tremendous changes and going to take place next year 1st qtr. . . relationship never fail to join the chaos team. Nothing in my life seem to be alright.

When will the tide be over. . .